My 2014 was eventful (what an understatement). I started it in the middle of my culinary year. I had met the most amazing and inspiring people. What did I learn? I learnt that passion isn't something you have, it is something you develop. I learnt that if you are hungry enough you don't have to be intelligent, you just have to be smart to succeed. I learnt my own personal limits. Most importantly I learnt that there is something in the world that can stir the flames in my heart that I have always known was there.
I saw and experienced so much in the kitchens of New York- I have been broken down and humbled to be rebuilt to become the person I am today. Thank you is not enough to express the gratitude and the honor I've felt while shadowing such great people.
In March, I had to say good bye to the one being who has loved me unconditionally all his life. Someone whose heart I knew I kept breaking over and over again but stayed true to me through thick and thin. We watched each other grow and we were always there for each other. I loved him as much and as deeply as I could love anyone. It is the most devastating thing that has happened to me and I still cannot think of him without tearing up even just a little bit. I found out that he was leaving me while I was at work. I stepped out of the kitchen and bawled my eyes out. I recorded the last thing he would ever hear from me and I hope he heard me say that I love him and I will always love him.
Graduation came and past and my three month internship went by in a blink of an eye.
Then I made this crazy decision to leave. Why? Many reasons; I was done with New York, I didn't want to apply for a visa in a country and wait for the rejection, I thought that my life would be better in a place I had citizenship in but mainly I just wanted to go home.
So I packed up, said good bye to the love of my life- kissed him while I whispered, "I will see you soon". I reminisced about the good times I've had in the last 5 years; the people who have walked into my life, touched my heart, broken it and glued it back together. The people who I've laughed with and cried with, who I've loved and will never forget and whose postcards I cannot wait to receive.
I'm one lucky bitch.
In the middle of the year- I moved to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. It was a whirlwind! Within 7 days of being in the country, I had scheduled 4 interviews and I was offered two jobs. As much as I really needed to take a break- life threw me a golden ticket and I just could not resist. I found this amazing company called Text100. (I hope you notice that the company color is coincidentally the exact shade of my favorite color)
In them I've found a new family- one that picks and prods at me but love me all the same. One that tweets my most embarrassing moments but will feed me teh ping, ice cream and sugar cookies when I'm feeling under the weather. They are the same people who have pointed out my dyslexia (although I never knew I had it) and will hopefully push and support me while I give a go in this career I've stumbled upon.
I'll be honest, moving here has not been a walk in the park. It has been more like walking on a bed of roses with a million thorns. I moved away from Prabodha Pradhan. The man I've been basically living with for a good year and a half. He has made me a better person by being by my side whenever I need him. He has made me more confident, made my life more stable and just made me happier in general. He helped me believe that there is no one soulmate. He has helped me believe in myself.
Naturally, it was painful to leave him. It was like I lost a limb. I could not sleep, my mental state was a mess and I just could not see beyond the pain for not having him with me anymore. I've come a long way from there but there are still a lot we have to deal with. This long distance has not been easy although he has done all he knows to do to keep it as manageable as possible. I know I still love him and the most I can do is try and hope for the best :)
So let me end my 2014 with a more positive note. I'm closer to my family and my best friend (who I live with and haven't wanted to kill yet) and I'm with people who love and care about me. I cannot wait to see what 2015 has in store for me!
ps. I'm driving a pink car- would have you ever guessed it?
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