As each semester ends, I am another step closer to completing my studies.
However, with the ending of each semester, I can feel my youth fading away. As exaggerating as it sounds, I am starting to feel the pressure of being an adult.
Ironic isn't it? One minute, i can't wait to be an adult and the next, I'm afraid.
I'm not sure what I'm afraid of. Is it the pressure from my parents? Is it the pressure from society's expectations?
I hate those days when I feel so much at a loss that I start to deny everything. I admit that I live in denial most of the time but I realized that if I let everyone help me make my decisions, I will never learn from anything.
So what if I believe in happy endings or in optimism? They bash you down with discouraging words like,'It will never work out' or 'I don't think you should do that' or 'You should be this.. or that'. Why must I succumb to your expectations when I haven't even exceeded my own?
Am I being an insensitive person? or am I just being selfish?
Who gets to define what's good for you and what's bad?
Why do I have so many questions?
This is why I'm having sleepless nights again.
Le sigh.
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